Babies Souls

[Angelsmum]

Lately I have been a little down, maybe as Emily has just passed the 16 week mark (when Madi passed away) I dont know. Ive been feeling so tired and under the weather, and sometimes I feel alone.
Tony is usually a pretty good help, but for some reason I just cant bring myself to really smile.Ive been quite down after very early M/C last week and Emily still has really bad days where I have to carry/sling her most of the day (colic). The last few nights have been the worst, with Em not going to sleep till 4am which is when DH leaves for work and then she gets up at 7am.Im tired and cranky, but I have since discovered there is something else bothering me.
I dont feel the presence of Madison-Belle anymore. I used to walk around the house and talk to her coz I knew she was there, but lately I truly feel alone. Sometimes I think that Madi's Soul could be in Emily, as they are so alike in personality, other times I think she is just gone off on another mission.
It upsets me so much as I pray to Madison-Belle all the time to be there for her sister, and help her feel better(with her colic) and then I see Emily screaming in pain. Am i being silly or selfish? Sometimes I curse the man above for giving me another child that has to be in pain.

Does anyone believe that the Souls of deceased children stay with their parents and have first dibs and next baby? Sometimes I look at Emily and think "oh yes you have been here before" yet I dont feel that relaxed feeling anymore like I used to when I felt the presence of Madison.
Ive tried meditating, and burning incense but I dont think my body is strong at the moment.
anyway thats enough for me, this prob shouldve been a rant.

luv to all
Rach

[Hailstorm]

I definately think Madi is still here with you Rach but maybe she has decided just to step back and watch for awhile so you can prove to yourself that you CAN get through anything. I know Hailey sees her she tells me every single day. Maybe she feels that her work is done here? You know I'm here for ya mate for anything!!
All my love
Kylsxoxo

[~Luna~]

Rach can hubby take some time off work? I think you need someone with you atm.
I think being so tired with a colicy baby maybe playing with your spritual self which is why you aren't channeling Madi-B so well right now.
She is there, she will NEVER leave you


I'm so sorry for your recent loss too *hugs* I didn't know.
healing to you and Emily.

[bunty]

Rach, so much of this is still raw for you. It must be strange to have felt some comfort from Madi-B, only to wonder where it has gone lately. Sleep deprivation is not going to help either, so I do hope Em settles down more soon. Have you looked at your diet to see if there may be foods upsetting Em? Colic generally settles by the 12 week mark, or improves markedly. Perhaps something you are consuming is making Emily more unsettled.

I just wanted to say, take care of you, and get support and help where you need it.

[StormAngel]

Does anyone believe that the Souls of deceased children stay with their parents and have first dibs and next baby?

I believe they do and I believe this child was my 1st.

Collic is hard to deal with, its tiring and demanding and the simplest thing brings it on but as they develop and awaken into this world it eases off, collic lasted here for about 3 months - not fun

[mum_2_three]

just wanted to send ((hugs)) and strength to you at this time.

Maybe a short weekend/time out together as a family to get back on track as Emily may be feeling your stresses.
I belive that Madi-B will always be there when you need her the most.

[Bejamumma]

(hugs) rach! i guess i'm thinking these early days with a new bub are such an emotional roller coaster in themselves without the healing journey that you are walking.

i just hope your down time ends soon and you can be your happy self again.

I guess down times are an important part in our lives as we can then appreciate the little highs we experience in our lives.

(hugs)

[spiralgirl]

rach , just wanted to send hugs and love.

As others have said, life with a new bub is very hard sometimes, but you have so much more stuff going on to deal with

Im not sure of your spiritual beliefs, but I do believe that souls stay around when needed and then move on to a new life. I think Madi stayed around to help you through the hardest times...and now handed that role over to Emmy...I also believe that Emmy is a soul from your past, you have met before, and in time things will settle with her - she has been on a long journey to get to you....that is just my thoughts and I hope that might help in some way?

much love to you and hope emmy feels better soon too.....

[rebjm]

Oh my sweet friend. You know Madi will always be with you anyway she can. I think if she has moved on it would be in a form to be closer to you.
You will always miss her, especially at times like these (16 weeks) when you are reminded of her and your recent loss hasn't helped.
Let yourself mourn. After the rain comes another sunny time.
You are a great Mum and a great person that has had a bad thing happen.
All I can do is send you lots of love and hugs and pray for some relief for Emmie.

[MammaRocks]

So sorry to hear about your reccent loss Rach

You are going through so much right now, it is no wonder you feel so overwhelmed.
I dont really have much more to add that hasn't already been said except to send you love and strength and healing vibes for Emmy to feel better soon. I'm sure Madi is still watching over you, Emily and Tony, maybe you just need to give yourself a bit of time to relax and recover go easy xxx