Fear of spirituality

[AmyS]

All my life I have had 'weird stuff' happen to me. It used to terrify me (it seems that I tend to 'tune in' to nagative energy and pick up frightening things)and I think I managed to somehow block off that part of me. But as I get older, particularly since Molly's birth I have felt a strong pull back towards it. And my dreams indicate that I should explore and expand it. The problem is that I am afraid. Terrified. And I don't know why.

I feel that by continuing to block it I am stopping growth of a vital part of myself. And I don't want Molly to grow up afraid of 'the uknown'. A friend of mine came over the other day and told me that she has been exactly the same all her life. She said that she's sick of fear and is going to see a recommended clairvoyant. This struck a chord with me. But I am too afraid to go!
Howq do I get around this? I really don't want to live in fear all my life.

[craftymum]

I'm not sure anyone who embraces their spirituality knows the full picture...most of us hope when we die , that this will be revealed. We make choices to put our faith in something to help us grasp the mystery a little better and to guide us in our life. I belive that whatever one's belief or faith is, that where they feel it is in their heart, so they don't have to be anywhere to connect with their spirituality, although it does help, but equally being around like-minded people of the same faith or belief is uplifting too.
Meditation - I think is a good way to start to reflect on what your heart feels and let it guide you as to what direction you can go.

I came to understand my spirituality through a charismatic catholic group (praise the lord people) but I'm not active with them now, they taught me many things about my spiritual gifts and connecting with god.

There is a negative and positive spiritual force, I don't believe we can have one without the other. The negative is certainly there but its not productive, its ok to recognise it exists but the focus is better kept on the positive...as this where peace of heart lies and that we all need to survive our days.

I hope your able to find some peace with your questions

[betty]

I think it is scary only because it is unknown
if you make an effort to "know" it, no longer scary

I alos think most western people are scared or spirituality etc as our lives/worlds/culture is predominately agnostic or athiest

I'm a practicing Hindu and the word Veda (as in the books) means "know", not "to know" but the actual knowing

I see tarot readers here and there because I am a pagan (always have been) but I don't open to that world too much as I think more of the darker energies reside there
be careful what clarvoyants can open up if you can't protect yourself

[Nyree]

I second meditation as a way of opening up.

I've had some really positive "stuff", but also the occasional possession (kinda scary), particularly around my ex, who seemed to attract the negative energies. It's been a while since I 'tuned in', but I think motherhood kicks our intuition & spiritual sides into 'being'.

The trick is to be aware, but not afraid.

[casm]

Well Amy I'm pretty sure you and just about everyone else won't like what I have to say on this but since others have thrown in their 2 cents...

If you seek true answers, and don't want to live in fear be careful of going to see a clairvoyant.

I am in "touch" with the spiritual realm but I believe I have authority over it rather than the other way around and that is why I'm not afraid.

Once you understand this, you understand you are more powerful. How? Well, happy to tell you privately but like I said, you probably won't feel comfortable with the answer

[chelsea]

I understand. Sometimes the fear of not knowing is easier than the challenges one might face when confronted with such a 'topic'. The unknown is such a paradox- it is actually so understood by us all. We are just fearful od the power we all have when aware of it.

I believe by following your intuition- unbiased of what anyone says is the best choice. I have followed my energies and found many glorious people, places and lessons along the way.

I also believe meditation is a fantastic tool for self development. Those who do not go within go without. You know it all already- so fear is just a mask to hide the power within all of us.

I have had many things happen to me since Laila's birth- especially during the natural birthing process.

[AmyS]

Thanks all for your replies. Cas, you have me interested. I will PM you. I used to do meditation, but had big probs wth the breathing when sitting up. Blockage of some sort there I think. I really should try it again though. I thought too, of doing some sort of course, crystal healing really pulls at the moment.